Acceptance
Why is it really hard to accept the truth? That is probably one of the questions that keeps on running in my head. There are times when I notice that He doesn't love me, or He loves them more compared to me. Well I can't blame him, because He had been with them for a long time. If only 엄마 and I didn't left this place before, we might still be complete right now, I shouldn't be living with them, I shouldn't be seeing how happy He was,is and will be with "them". Sometimes I feel like I am an outsider here in their home, but I just tell myself "It's okay, just imagine that this isn't happening." I can't erase the fact that I get jealous on them. Every time I see them happy, I ask myself: - bakit kasi hindi ako makulit nung bata pa ako di tulad niya na sobrang kulit ngayon kaya close na sila kahit na bata pa lang siya? -bakit kasi hindi ako magaling mag badminton di tulad niya? -bakit kasi hirap na hirap akong kumain ng gula...
